rele that depressed?

wow, i just read through my last 10 posts or so and i sound really depressed, dont i? i think so, and it makes me sad to kno that im worrying all these people with my problems, also scares me that im able to put that much on a simple internet diary. so from now on im only posting the day to day stuff, no depressing things or n e thing

but today was boring, nothing special, so im not gonna write bout it

hate it

gosh, i dont know, i wish it was as easy as just writing all my feelings down in a public journal that everyone can read, but its not. if things were as easy as taht then hell, id be as happy as a fucking clam. but no, lifes got to be much more complicated. i really dont want to tell anyone anythiing anymore, because all my problems are just so stupid to them. no one understands n e thing, no matter how much they say they do, i know that i must sound rele bad by sayin every thing that i do, but its just....... ugh i dunno. some times i just wonder what its really worth. i gotta hand it to all yall out there who have stuck by me through all this, i know taht ive been a bitch and rele untollerable, and i appreciate you tryin to help but i jus gotta work some stuff out on my own. well ya i guess i should go, love yall

lifes a blur

some days are good, some bad, it really all depends. i think im getting used to the being depressed thing, as bad as that sounds its true. today i went to the mall with merissa brittany and katlyn. i was pretty happy (if happys what you could consider taht) i think i might have said 50 words while we were there. im really quiet these days, much more than i normally am at least. i really dont want to have to feel this way, but im tryin to look on the bright side, its eventually gotta get better. the only time i really seem to forget about how hard things are is when im reading. i seem to be doing alot of that latly. i guess lifes jsut kinda become a blur for me, one thing after the next, not sure where one day stops and the next begins. im writin alot latly too. i think im gonna start a novel, no joke. not sure waht its gonn abe about though, my life maybe. i dunno, but i should go, much love

im fine

im fine, im fine, im fine, im fine, im fine, im fine, im fine, im fine, im fine, im fine, im fine, im fine, im fine, im fine, im fine, im fine, im fine, im fine, im fine, im fine, im fine.............. FUCK NO IM NOT!!! god i dont know, theres so much i want to say, but i cant. im just so sorry to all those people im hurting, its not ur fault really, i love you all

long time no post

well i know i havnt posted in a while, i guess theres just been so much goin on in that lil head of mine and i dont rele know how to put it into words. lifes kinda been an emotional roller coaster latly, u kno up one day, down the next. i dunno, lifes jus so confusing any more, not rele sure where to turn, i mean i know that people are there for me. its just so hard to open up to anyone any more, theres so many secrets that i have botteled up, it seems that if u let one out, then theyre all gonna start spilling out, and i dont want that to happen. o well, guess im just gonna have to deal with it till things brighten up (who knows how long that could be) humm, well im gonna stop typin before i say too much, ttfn

ps, tomorows valentines day, i HATE valentines day

tgif

ya so once agian its friday, another week gone by. last night merissa spent the night at mi casa, that was fun except i was up most of the night workin on my damn progect for language arts. today was well, just another friday, i was actually rele happy today tho, not something i have known in a while. we had color gaurd after school, and i hit myself in the head with my flag, that hurt pretty bad. other than that, nothin rele special happened, much love
~ariel~

I MISS BRIAN

ya sooo

ya well, today was another day, a better one tho. dont rele know what to say about it, but my moms kinda screamin at em to get off, the important thing tho, im doin better!